Saturday, September 10, 2011
Still the fat girl...
I don't get it, I really don't. I'm here in my closet cleaning it out and found a bag...a bag of my old jeans sizes vary from 18 to(yikes)20! I'm standing here crying.
Because guys STILL see me as a friend. I WORKED my ass off but still I am deemed "friends" status only among other things. What am I doing wrong? I have been nice and happy towards everyone. I know, I know, I don't need a man in my life but I still want to be the girl thats seemed "wanted" instead of "Oh you are just a good friend".
I decided that I'll probably go back on HCG and lose the rest of the weight and when guys that looked at me as a friend now want me its too.damn.bad.
I'm done with this, I'm done being the fat girl, I thought I wasn't the fat girl anymore but I still am, and will continue to be til I am 130 lbs and I will do ANYTHING to get there.
I have realized lately that most guys don't want fat girls and I want to shove my eventually skinny self in their faces and tell them to kiss off.