Sunday, August 28, 2011

30 day blog challenge~Day one

I decided after checking out an awesome blogger Life Beyond the White Picket Fence that I would do the 30 day blog challenge.  I still have been procrastinating on my 30 day picture challenge which has been irritating me because most of my pictures are in storage and I'm NOT about to even go there this will have to do for now.

So, here we go

Day 1: Introduce, recent picture of yourself, 15 interesting facts

My name is Crista and I been through alot this past year but I've managed to work, go to school, and take care of 2 kids without completely losing my mind.  Blogging has been my therapy and having positive friends have helped also.

1. I am a recently divorced wife of two kids
2. I have lost over 60 lbs and still working on 30 more
3.  I love meeting new people, my happiness scale is through the roof when I am able to be around people and socialize with others
4. I think gay men are the best people in the world and I wish that I could have a pocket sized one
5. I have learned to be a better accessorizer.  Since losing weight I try and look my best.
6. My cat seriously has issues but we totally get each other
7. My daughter is my diva and she has got me to love and appreciate the color pink
8. My son has taught me that there are good guys in the world and I'm fairly certain he will make one fantastic husband to a lucky lady
9. I have recently learned that being in a bubble will only make your depression worse
10. I have to always be doing something, I get bored very easily
11. I wish one day that I find a guy that gets me and is my soulmate and that I'm truly in love with him
12. I am a proud Christian and when I feel that I'm off the path I tend to talk to my Godmother for advice and I also watch Joyce Meyer
13. My favorite guilty pleasure movie is Napoleon Dynamite. I like to watch it when I'm sad or feeling off that day
14. Though sometimes I can be a bit scattered I am a fairly good organizer and I'm also a list maker.  I will write things down but sometimes forget..I blame it on mommy brain!
15. When people try and push me down emotionally I have learned to get back up and fight because I know that I'm a good person and a good mom.  I'm not perfect but no one is!

We all want happiness

I have had an enlightenment.  I wanted to go to church today and looked up when the church I go to for PWOC had services and it said 11 a.m. so I got up got ready and left.  I went into the church and noticed I was the only white person there and got looks like "girl, you are so out of place" so I took my cell phone and pretended I had a call and left.  I realized it was the right church, wrong service.

When I got home I discussed the situation with friends on facebook and got encouragement that I should have just stayed and it got me to think that just because you feel out of place it doesn't matter, just stay and see how it goes.  I guess maybe I should have just swallowed the doubts and just do it.

I am now listening to Joyce Meyer as my inspiration and my Sunday service for the day, she totally makes me happy and lifts my heart to God.

* I realize that not everyone are Christians and I am open to all religions, I used to be Wiccan but I decided that Christianity was a better path for me.  I'm not telling anyone to be a Christian if they choose not to, it is YOUR path that YOU choose! :)

Some days I am happy and some days I just want to be sad and left alone.  Sometimes I feel empty and worthless and I try to not feel that way but we are all human beings and we all have emotions.  People who say they can never be happy are denying themselves and they are not accepting to the fact that they can be happy if they just open their eyes and see that there are people who love them and care for them if they just accept it.  I have met some people who just don't care about anything and I would try and be there for them but they just won't accept it or won't care to accept it, theres nothing else you can do about it.  I have been trying to surround myself with happy positive people because life is not worth living if you are just going to sit on a black cloud and mope every damn day. 

We all need and we all want happiness we just have to find them and we can't find them if we sit and bitch about it in a secluded bubble with no human contact.

Monday, August 15, 2011

Mama Kat's writing workshop

This girl met a guy around March.  They spent some time together, her trying to get over her marriage and they had a lot of fun together.  There were periods of not talking because she had work and kids and didn't have time.  There were times he'd message her and wonder why she didn't message her.  He seemed to want to spend time with her, his words never registered in her mind because she thought he was one of the typical guys who just wants what all guys want.  She started dating another guy which last about a week.  The weekend she was still with the other guy, he messaged her and she told him that she was dating someone else.  He told her that he was going to ask her out that night.  She was devastated.  She decided to meet him that night which turned into more than she thought.  He still didn't ask her to be his girlfriend which upset her even more.  This "relationship" went on and then about a month later out of the blue messaged her and told her he was getting kicked out of the army and moving to another town about an hour away but he still wanted to be friends.  She met up with him and spent some time talking.  He decided that he didn't want to be with her after all because he wanted someone without kids since his last 2 relationships included children and he wanted to start fresh.  He still wanted to be friends with her but her heart was already broken.  After she left his room she thought long and hard and decided not to keep in contact with him any longer and told him.  He didn't seem to care at all which broke her heart even more.  She first heard this song which opened her eyes and made her remember the other guys in her life that she was glad were the best things she never had.

Monday, August 1, 2011

Happy 30th to MTV(I WANT YOU BACK!)

You once were good but now you went to total crap..what is wrong with you?  You were created when I was a year old so I got to enjoy actual videos.  Its a shame that the generation now has to put up with crap such as Jersey Shore and Teen Mom. 

I'm ashamed of you, you who once was a product of the greatest generation(the 80s)

To this horrid crap:

I'm ashamed of you MTV and ashamed that you have subjected yourself to this.