Saturday, July 30, 2011

Today I cried

An FYI I deactivated my facebook, I did not delete it, I needed to be without it for awhile I will return later.

Not because I've been divorced for two weeks now but because I need some soul searching.  I was tired of venting on Facebook mainly because everyone was telling me to get over it and quit looking for pity...since when does having a bad day and wanting to post it on your OWN profile equal to wanting pity?  Sometimes things I say are a cry out for help not pity but I'm too stubborn to ask for it.  I been drowning myself in not very healthy things these past few months..well since I was separated from my now ex and since we are divorced I can speak of some now.

Food...(ok, that is not one of the secrets)
Alcohol and soldiers do not mix(yes, thats the secret I had, you figure it out)

Starving myself some days, gorging the next

Should I go on?  Yeah, didn't think so. 

So before you all go on about how I'm looking for pity you all can kiss off because I'm trying to deal with everything the best way I can and I'm now seeing that I really had no support, I been doing this all and dealing with everything MYSELF so thanks for nothing.  Thanks for a few that thought that going back to my ex was better for me because you didn't want me around, thanks for thinking that the only reason why I left my ex was so I could go have fun with other men.

Thanks to a few family members who thought talking down to me was better than being there for me.  No ONE really has no idea what I'm thinking or feeling you all assume stupid things just so that way you can make me feel bad but ya know what?  Noone can make me feel bad without my permission and now you don't have my permission any longer because I'm going to make it, I will make it because the longer you degrade me, the stronger I will get.

Don't worry about me, I will get through it without you.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Trying to tune back into my ~ing

For awhile now I felt like I was worthless, stuck in a dead-end job(still do), never be able to find my true love, never be able to be the best mom, friend, ect. But I'm back in school, taking care of the babes, being there for my friends who need me, and I don't expect anything back in return.  My ego had been winning for so long that I was literally dirt under its negative feet.  I realized that once I started standing up for myself at work and in general that I am stronger than I thought I was.  I don't feel like that little girl that cried instead of saying "hey, knock it off!" I am one to tell people how I feel now, if you don't like me too bad, you either hate me or you love me, there is no gray area with me.  I can be the best friend you ever had or your worst enemy, its your choice but I am devoted to my friends no matter what and the ones that have known me for years can attest to that.

Gabby has literally changed my life and I love her for that.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Why I support the troops

Because of people like her...

No, I'm not going to get pissed or angry like a lot of people would I will say this though



Because obviously she never loved or been loved by a United States military man and thats a damn shame.  I pity her because she never once been to a deployment ceremony and seen the tear stained eyes of children and spouses saying goodbye to their soldier hoping that they will come home in one piece.

Its a shame that our troops have to defend people like this
Its a shame that her elementary mentality and ignorance led her to make others dislike her even more.
Its a shame that her friends who joined the military have to deal with her ignorant and prejudice(and stereotypical) remarks.

People like her forget September 11, 2001.

She goes on about how our troops kill innocent people...umm..if she would stop watching the liberal media she would know that these "innocent" people hide bombs under their clothing.  A lot of these children who she thinks are "innocent" shun our soldiers and hide all kinds of weapons under their clothing to kill them.  Not all Muslims are peaceful people and if she got out the Koran she'd know that.  I'd go on and on but it would turn into a political and religious debate.

People like her should be pitied because they have NO idea what they are talking about.

I don't support our administration but I support our troops 110% and if you don't stand behind them you can gladly stand in front. Thankyouverymuch.